Re: Alex and Alexis's Wedding....

Jabberwocky Wed Jun 22, 2011 7:36 pm

Ashley takes a deep breath...and faces the family
Ashley:"Before I begin, thank you for this moment. I realize that many would rather not be here right now. Or ever. I realize that this will likely never result in forgiveness for me actions of past. I want you to know though that is not however me intentions or primary desire in doing this. Yes there is a certain amount of closure I've wanted that is not me goal here...I only ask that you hear wot I 'ave to say and do with it wot you want.

he sits down, thinking for a moment
"It would be difficult for me to give an apology without some sort of an explanation. Things that...well either I 'ad tried to ignore or 'id from all that time. Going back before you, Alex or you, Amanda were conceived. When your parents considered me a friend...
he looks over at Ewan and Jillian
"The time of the Royal Family...leading up to...
Well...as 'appy as I seemed at that point, secretly I wasn't. You both were royalty. The cream of the crop. And I was...or felt like...nobody in comparison. I felt
...still do...
like there was no way I could ever compare to either of you two.
How could I? I was a damn drunk who made joke promos that, no matter how praised they were by some people were never good enough.
You guys trained fer years, garnered respect, were raised in the industry.
I just stumbled into it.
You both were raised by families with status.
I was...well...not soon after we first met, all thoughs years ago...I was an orphan.
..Really none of that should 'ave bothered me. I shouldn't 'ave let it bother me.
But I did. I did, and I kept it bottled inside me like a poison.
Even when I finally won the 'eavyweight belt...while yes I was please I won it...I didn't embrace it.
I didn't enjoy it loik I should 'ave.
It was a flash in the pan and then I felt obscure again,
letting things eat at me more.
What I really wanted was...to feel like I could make a serious contribution.
Not just to the careers we all 'ad in common but to the friendship we 'ad.
I wanted to feel like I could be feel more like the an equal less loik a drunken stereotype comedy act that 'appened to be associated with you...
The further it got...the less loikly in me mind it seemed that was going to be and..."

Ashley goes silent for a moment

"In me mind I didn't feel noticed and important. To feel like I 'ad an impact in yer lives...
Ewan...Jillian...wot I did was horrible.
Not just the kick.
Not just the gloating. But that...instead of turning to me friends fer 'elp,
I turned on them instead. I...turned on you both when you were at your most vulnerable.
Instead of realizing I should have sucked up the little bit of pride I had and let you know how I felt, I did the most 'urtful thing possible to people that I cared...care...for...
And if that wasn't bad enough..."

He looks at Alex and Amanda

"That blast of anger struck at the most innocent o'creatures. You 'adn't even seen the light of day. You were defenceless to stop me from..."

he looks at Ewan

"I know wot you're thinking.
Because everybody 'as asked me the same question.
And the answer is no. I would never be able to fergive me fer doing wot I did to yer family.
I not only attacked yer family, I attacked it's legacy.
Fer that...Fer taking advantage of the situation I put you in Jillian...
Fer causing you the 'eadaches, the 'ead trauma, the inability to continue yer familys legacy in the capacity you were to be born to do, Alex...
Fer causing you to feel a 'atred nobody so young and beautiful as you should 'ever feel,Amanda...
Fer all the 'ell I put you all through...
I know that no apology could ever in any loif time make up for anything I did.
But from the bottom of my heart I apologize fer everything.

Loik I said, I know this won't result in me being forgiven, and I did not do this fer pity, or in hopes that you'd loik me again. I did this because I felt it was the right thing to do. That it was owed to you all."

he walks to the door

"I'm going to leave now and I will never bring any of this up.
I will never darken yer door unless invited, or my daughter needs me to be there.
I only ask that anything any of you say to me regarding this or anything else is yer 'onest truth.
That included you Alex...Please, do not sugar coat or act nice if it is not wot you actually feel."

he opens the door, looking at the family one last time before exiting the room and heading back into the reception. He feels a sense of relief for saying it, but a queasiness also. He walks outside to be sick over the rail

Cruel Britannia Wed Jun 22, 2011 7:50 pm

Ewan follows Ashley out and pats him on the back as he vomits.

Ewan: That was a brave thing you did.....

Jabberwocky Wed Jun 22, 2011 7:53 pm

Ashley wipes his mouth
Ashley:"Thank you Ewan. I'll leave you alone with time to think about it. Or not think about it. Thats your choice. Loik I said, I know not to expect forgiveness for an apology. Or that me words will change any of yer minds on me."

Cruel Britannia Wed Jun 22, 2011 8:17 pm

Ewan: Ashley.... The kind of memories..... that we have of you..... are simply not the kind of memories that leave a man. We could not have you as a part of our life.... not because we wanted to punish you or.... just felt like holding a grudge. You couldn't be a part of our lives because you are a walking reminder of what happened..... a horror that my family..... and I do not deserve to relive. Unfortunately..... although your efforts have been extraordinary in getting your life back on track. Unfortunately none of that can take away our memories of what you did. That is where our problem is..... it's not hate against you..... or spite..... it..... it just hurts too damn much to be around you and remember.

However..... although we wont be inviting you round for afternoon tea...... it is inevitable that our paths will cross again..... your daughter is now my daughter.... and ironically, my son is now your son..... and sooner or later their children will be OUR grandchildren..... We must coexist. I would never want to inflict upon them the pain we have inflicted upon ourselves..... and our children. So it stops tonight.

He extends his hand.

Things will never be as they once were Ashley..... but there is no vendetta..... we are simply trying to forget a very painful period of our lives.

Jabberwocky Wed Jun 22, 2011 8:26 pm

Ashley accepts the handshake
Ashley:"Loik I said, I'm not going to darken your doorstep without invitation or is my daughter needs me...
...Per'aps in another twenty years we can take another step forward. But until then..."

Cruel Britannia Wed Jun 22, 2011 8:32 pm

Ewan half chuckles.

Ewan: Until then..... you get your ass back inside and enjoy the remainder of your daughter's absurdly elaborate wedding.

Jabberwocky Wed Jun 22, 2011 8:38 pm

Ashley:"Elaborate...You know, I know you didn't exactly want to talk to me at the time but...You could 'ave let me know about this. As much as I respect Ben well...I am Alexis father and I would have contributed...I'll just leave it at that."

Cruel Britannia Wed Jun 22, 2011 8:58 pm

Ewan: .....I assumed you did..... every piece of paper I was handed had the name Ashley O'Ryan on it. I just thought Ben and Moira were talking to you about splitting the "bride's family's" expenses. I'm sure no offense was meant by it.... guess Ben thought he was doing something nice.

The rest of the family emerge from the room. Mandy goes straight over to Micah and wearily rests her head on his shoulder. Alex walks over to Lexi and wraps his arms around her.

Jabberwocky Wed Jun 22, 2011 9:03 pm

Ashley:"Ah...Just wait, i'll be surprised with a bill expectantly in the mail in two months..."
he glances over at Ewans children
"There really is no escaping each other anymore is there? I mean...I stand by me word but...were all pretty much tied to one another with this marriage."

Cruel Britannia Wed Jun 22, 2011 9:16 pm

Ewan: To a certain extent..... but it's not like we'll be living in each other's laps..... I mean.... most in-laws barely even know each other. Hell we don't even live in the same country.....neither of us even live in the same country as our kids.

Pockets Wed Jun 22, 2011 9:32 pm

Alexis is startled by her father rushing out of the room, but before she can react to the sound of his retching, sees Ewan following him and feels Alex's arms around her. She looks up at her new husband.

Alexis: Was that it going well?

Cruel Britannia Wed Jun 22, 2011 9:38 pm

He stares at Alexis and nods.

Alex: I think so.... Your dad had his say.... I don't know if he got what he wanted out of it..... but..... I think it's over...... enough for you to not feel like you're being pulled apart by horses anyway.

Pockets Wed Jun 22, 2011 9:42 pm

Alexis: I just didn't like feeling as if I had to pick a side... I am an Edwards now... but I will never not be an O'Ryan. I know how much of an effort doing that was for everyone though, and I appreciate that.

Jabberwocky Wed Jun 22, 2011 9:43 pm

Ashley:"Heh I know...Although you know as well as I do 'ow this lot seems to get pulled together frequently. We all ended up together on both sides o'the pond at least three times this year already."

Cruel Britannia Wed Jun 22, 2011 9:51 pm

Alex: I can't speak for your family Lexi..... but mine has never expected you to choose.... my family love you no less for not wanting to abandon your family..... they understand better than most. That's why I don't talk about my issues with your dad.... because I know you'll want to be able to side with me..... but not want to at the same time..... I never want you to feel as if me or my family are putting you in that position.... because we never would.

Ewan looks a little sad.

Ewan: I love seeing my kids..... but I do wish there wouldn't be so many fucking near death encounters.

Pockets Wed Jun 22, 2011 9:56 pm

Alexis nods.

Alexis: Were things cleared up... or....?

Cruel Britannia Wed Jun 22, 2011 10:03 pm

Alex: Well.... he said what he wanted to say..... and that he'd stay out of the family's hair..... and that...... I don't have to be nice to him.... although I'm not really sure how that'd work.

And I'd imagine my dad is explaining why true forgiveness is impossible..... that it's not hate.... that it's just hard to be around him because it makes them look back at what happened.

I think every one is more....understanding of everyone else's position now..... so I suppose that cleared the air.

Jabberwocky Wed Jun 22, 2011 10:04 pm

Ashley sighs and nods
Ashley:"Aye...This moit sound strange but...Stu and Caley dying sort of opened me eyes a bit too."

Cruel Britannia Wed Jun 22, 2011 10:08 pm

Ewan: How so?

Pockets Wed Jun 22, 2011 10:08 pm

Alexis: If I go visit dad around Christmas, I'll understand if you won't want to come with.

Cruel Britannia Wed Jun 22, 2011 10:16 pm

Alex: Let's make that decision when there time comes huh? At this point I don't know if that would you.... and me for that matter feel better about it or worse, huh.

He snuggles deeper into her.

I'm sorry.... I'm sorry I couldn't just let it go..... I tried.

Pockets Wed Jun 22, 2011 10:23 pm

Alexis strokes Alex's hair.

Alexis: I wasn't expecting it to be some miracle love-fest or something with group hugs all around.

Cruel Britannia Wed Jun 22, 2011 10:31 pm

He starts rubbing her back.

AlexI know sweetie.... I just can't help but feel like I'm letting you down.

Jabberwocky Wed Jun 22, 2011 10:31 pm

Ashley:"Mortality fer one thing...Just know both of them are dead. Hearing wot Stu said on 'is deathbed...Seeing 'ow Colin reacted when Caley died in 'is arms..."

Pockets Wed Jun 22, 2011 10:36 pm

Alexis: I don't want you to have to force yourself to do anything for me. I would love for there to be a time when you can look at my dad and not just see the monster you've heard stories about... but I came into this half worried it would turn into an all out fight....

She smiles.

Alexis: Tonight turned out far better than I expected.

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