Re: Ashley O'Ryan's Vancouver house

Cryonix Mon Apr 11, 2011 8:54 pm

Dr. Wilson: Very nice picture. Ah...here's something to talk about....when did you start drinking?

Jabberwocky Mon Apr 11, 2011 9:01 pm

Ashley:"Young actually. Very young. Me father would let us 'ave the odd sip 'ere and there. 'ed be sitting infront o'the fireplace with a glass o'whiskey, telling me and Paddy stories. 'ed let me and me brother 'ave sips of 'is drink...
After 'e died I found 'is bottles o'liquor. Mom wanted to throw them out. I said I would but secretly I 'id them. When ever I missed 'im I 'ad a sip. It..reminded me of 'im."

Cryonix Mon Apr 11, 2011 10:33 pm

Dr. Wilson: So then...how did it get from that to....where you ended up, Ash?

Jabberwocky Mon Apr 11, 2011 10:35 pm

Ashley:"You mean where I was drinking to ferget, rather then remember?"

Cryonix Mon Apr 11, 2011 10:35 pm

Dr. Wilson: Yes.

Jabberwocky Mon Apr 11, 2011 10:44 pm

Ashley:"A transition...eventually I started drinking because I liked the feel. That was early in me career. I was that happy go luck type. Christ, I was a feckin' cliche. And thats 'ow it felt I was viewed. I actually went sober fer almost a year. But people still referred to me as a drunk. As if that was all I could be. As if that was me place in the scheme o'things. Eventually I listened and took to the bottle...but there was something different about it that time.."

Cryonix Mon Apr 11, 2011 10:47 pm

Dr. Wilson: Different?

Jabberwocky Mon Apr 11, 2011 10:51 pm

Ashley:"Aye. It didn't feel the same. I didn't feel 'appy doing it. But I felt worse not doing it. I don't know why."

Cryonix Mon Apr 11, 2011 10:53 pm

Dr. Wilson: Hmm....I see. Then let me ask you this. Is it the same feeling with...I'm sorry I don't know her name...the lady in the kitchen. Is it the same feeling?

Jabberwocky Mon Apr 11, 2011 10:54 pm

Ashley:"You mean when I felt 'appy drinking?"

Cryonix Mon Apr 11, 2011 10:57 pm

Dr. Wilson: Yes.

Jabberwocky Mon Apr 11, 2011 11:04 pm

Ashley shakes his head
Ashley:"Not even close. I couldn't compare the two."

Cryonix Mon Apr 11, 2011 11:09 pm

Dr. Wilson: Why is that?

Jabberwocky Mon Apr 11, 2011 11:13 pm

Ashley:"No bottle ever called a therapist for me. No bottle ever tried to 'elp me. No bottle ever...made me feel like I was worth that effort."

Cryonix Mon Apr 11, 2011 11:15 pm

Dr. Wilson: Oh, I see. So she's....your redemption in some way?

Jabberwocky Mon Apr 11, 2011 11:18 pm

Ashley looks oddly at the doctor
Ashley:"Unless I'm mistaken, that word almost sounds like you're asking if I'm using 'er to save meself."

Cryonix Mon Apr 11, 2011 11:20 pm

Dr. Wilson: Did those words come out of my mouth, Ashley? It's funny though...that that's the first thing you'd think of...

Jabberwocky Mon Apr 11, 2011 11:22 pm

Ashley:"...Wot do you mean by that?"

Cryonix Mon Apr 11, 2011 11:44 pm

Dr. Wilson: Well, Ashley from what I can tell...you are a very strong individual...but you've been though hell...and you think that...by going though hell without help...there was some redemption to be had. But...

...if you were so strong...a business man if I read my notes on you correctly...why were you not able to call for help yourself?

Jabberwocky Mon Apr 11, 2011 11:50 pm

Ashley is silent for a long time, looking down at the floor. Eventually he sighs, his eyes closing
Ashley:"I didn't deserve 'elp."

Cryonix Mon Apr 11, 2011 11:52 pm

Dr. Wilson: ....But now you do?

Jabberwocky Tue Apr 12, 2011 12:01 am

Ashley is even quieter then before. But its obvious in his eyes that he is thinking. And what he see's is nothing positive
Ashley"...I...I want 'elp. But...I spent so many years tormenting meself over the past that I couldn't do it. I just..."
more silence
"You mind if I go get a glass o'water?"

Cryonix Tue Apr 12, 2011 12:06 am

Dr. Wilson: I guess that's alright....but I do want to continue with this quickly, Ashley.

Jabberwocky Tue Apr 12, 2011 12:10 am

Ashley nods and walks to the kitchen. He turns the tap on but doesn't get a glass. He just watches the water flow from the tap in silence.
After a minute he wipes his face with some of it and, after turning the tap off, returns to the couch and sits down

Cryonix Tue Apr 12, 2011 12:22 am

Dr. Wilson: Are you alright, Ashley? Didn't look like the water....refreshed anything.

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